I guess my plan in the beginning was to first find out the inning
Then to crawl beneath your protective shell and lure you in my singing
I would find out what you do then I'd use it all against you
By working for the goal of making loving me the thing to do
I play it like I'm distant and never really listening
I talk of leaving your life right after we've been reminiscing

So all along there is a game and sometimes I am winning
But only because I am manipulative, devious and sinning
I do all that I can to get you in the palm of my hand
Baby, what's pathetic is the tactics used to tame this man

One minute you are cold as ice the next you are really really nice
Could it be you're playing me or could you just be indecisive
But how you come when called is it my scheming drawl or
Is it the mystery that I've built up that can't be called on
You can't explain and I see you try and taint it
But you appear where I am but can't admit that it's related

So all along there is a game and sometimes I am winning
But only because I am manipulative, devious and sinning
I do all that I can to get you in the palm of my hand
Baby, what's pathetic is the tactics used to tame this man

I can't stop thinking about cutting myself up
Visual bruises can be covered with make-up
But down to the core I'm all bruises
My little whore gives this excuses

How can this be rationalized
Your brain has programmed all of those lies
What do you tell yourself about our situation
How can you look at yourself without having some sort of revelation

How do you live with yourself
How could you possibly hurt someone like myself
The saddest part though, is I would take you back
You've turned me into some spineless hypochondriac

Now I tend to every last emotion
I'm just so caught up in this
I cannot grasp its hazed proportions

Alright now I'll be fair
I'll just pull you by your hair
I'll just kick you from time to time
And then I'll love you in the meantime
It will be just like before
I'll be your girl, you'll be my whore

I'm not an angry child
I don't run hot nor mild
But for some reason when it comes to you
I smile at the thought of hitting you

I smile at the thought of watching you die
I strive off the image of making you cry
I feed off the feeling of having you need
I lick the illusion of watching you bleed

He lit the fire in my heart
And with the same flame burnt my world down stark
I gave him the whole entire thing
At first he gently held it and then got bored and started carving

Love, all one needs
What I need is to try healing
And then make sure I never
Fall back into that feeling
Love and I, to one another never truely loyal
We don't mix to well
Love flows like water, I burn like oil
Yet I look around and there is all this water
But none that I should drink
I notice now that I am oil, and oil is all that I should think

A tiny pin prick, came little spurts of blood
A little trickle long enough can surely cause the flood
But last night he sped the process
He sliced it open then walked away and cut his losses

Love, all one needs
What I need is to try healing
And then make sure I never
Fall back into that feeling
Love and I, to one another never truely loyal
We don't mix to well
Love flows like water, I burn like oil
Yet I look around and there is all this water
But none that I should drink
I notice now that I am oil, and oil is all that I should think

So beautiful and capable of bringing me good news
Now the enemy with knives and pins looking to bruise
You fell out as quickly as you fell in
You never fell at all I was just kidding

Why do you decide to run these circles bruised around my thighs
Sleepless nights the bleeding clots
Why your eyes encapture my thoughts
Staring at, smirking at my ways
Lying down I whisper you can stay
Why can't everything just go my way

Caught in this trap, you sneer as I fall
My list of desires, your company is all
You come as a siren who lures me to betray
I have come as a temptress
Unaware that I'd be losing at my game

Why do you conclude that you can look right through my eyes
Expecting to read what I'm feeling here
Claiming beauty left you dear
This cliches what drives my force to you
It's the element breaking us too
If things were up to me I'd follow through

Caught in this trap, you sneer as I fall
My list of desires, your company is all
You come as a siren who lures me to betray
I have come as a temptress
Unaware that I'd be losing at my game

Why do I react this way
Why is it that I swoon to pay you
Back with this vendetta out
I hate you for the pain, the doubt

Never is our day of fucking bliss
This beatlejuice comes jaded for my kiss
Little suicides defend the pain
The ghost of you that follows me is held to blame
If I had you, I would not complain

Caught in this trap, you sneer as I fall
My list of desires, your company is all
You come as a siren who lures me to betray
I have come as a temptress
Unaware that I'd be losing at my game

Suddenly you can live without me you're no longer calling me up
Hours pass by without you I can't stop myself from throwing up
I'm woken up worrying will you come back I can't sleep in past eight
Then when night comes around I'm desperate and wired and
Can't fall asleep till really late

'Cause my psychotic vengeance is on a killing spree
My neurotic tendence, is just about to set me free
I think of little excuses, of how I can get to you
I conjure up things that are abusive and how I'll be doing them to you
Just cause we can't pull through

I want to call you up and cry to you and plead
I wanna kick you down, kick you till you bleed
I will bash your face in, I will fuck you up the ass
I'm gonna fuck your world up and
Dwell on just the past

'Cause my psychotic vengeance is on a killing spree
My neurotic tendence, is just about to set me free
I think of little excuses, of how I can get to you
I conjure up things that are abusive and how I'll be doing them to you
God bless the next baffoon

I lost 15 lbs and dyed my hair black to be your perfect girlfriend
But you left me for a blonde with meat on her bones
who makes mistakes now and then

I find it quaint how you channel your energy
It seems as though you use it on everything but me
Watch how interesting I will react
Don't question love, 'cause I swear I am so over that

'Cause my psychotic vengeance is on a killing spree

My neurotic tendence, is just about to set me free
I think of little excuses, of how I can get to you
I conjure up things that are abusive and how I'll be doing them to you
God I hate my new tattoo

To explain the madness of you
To complain of the sadness involved with knowing you
To forget the revolting thought of going through
The regret and the healing that I'd have to do

Through my eyes the sky is pretty
And you promise you'll join in the flight
But I can't deny the gritty thought
That you can't take the height

You can look at this as one big fall
Life will be both hell and bliss
Or it can be nothing at all
So I just ask you now to choose
Don't you think it's worth it
Even if you could still lose

How do I begin to speak
When actions measure true feelings
Though your words do leave me weak
Your movements always leave me kneeling
The true test of time is distance
But I am not willing to see
I won't damage with nonsense
What actions show is meant to be

Through my eyes the sky is pretty
And you promise you'll join in the flight
But I can't deny the gritty thought
That you can't take the height

You can look at this as one big fall
Life will be both hell and bliss
Or it can be nothing at all
So I just ask you now to choose
Don't you think it's worth it
Even if you could still lose