Ever present I've waited through
Sitting back and hoping life will preclude
One of the two
Of my dueling brutes
Racing neck to neck
But believe me I'm rooting for you...

Which one I choose to choose
Either way in some light I lose...
With you the time I couldn't undo
Everything I put you through

So I sit behind the glass
As you skate elegantly in this attack
Without my mind you'd be outright demised
But my denial...
Lets you strike back an eloquent attack

Why can't it be that you are one in the same?
Or at least something that can entertain?
Could it just be that insatiable me can't simply see...
What might better me?

Here I am, paralyzed with fright
In the waiting place, bolted upright
See I can't face the day nor sleep in the night
Flying with all the wrong birds
At a break neck steep flight

But at the bend
Hold fast to what he read ...

Baby, Things will surely happen
Oh kid, don't you know you'll move mountains
Just be slow, be footsy and know
Oh...the places you'll go.

These lonely games you're playing not particularly well
S'impossible to win when you play against yourself
Don't stumble through the hard parts and especially don't look back
Just keep your focus fiseed cuz life is one big balancing act

So instead
I stair straight ahead ...

Caught in a perch and I'm here in a lurch
Climbing down to find nothing but houses
Some blacked out windows some eerily lit
Either way, nothing quite friendly about this
I hear, girl keep on going
Be waterproof
Weak from scouring hope
When the dreams are in you ...

One fall and I'm trying harder
It's all about staying on
Good call, I'm no quick learner
But all in all
Mistakes made strong
My rights from my wrongs

So I sit and wait
On this crowded freeway
But what can I say I did things my own way
And don't regret a single day...

Twice burned call me a dreamer
Thrice burned call it a ploy
I am no whining complainer
'Cause what I do might slant my view
But I won't blame you

Oh I've thought of
Taking back the
Things that seem imprudent
But time travel
Might unravel
What my slips have proven

Draw the shade and come to bed
And when
We fall away from it all
Then you'll see ...
Who we're meant to be...

Close the shade give me the night
So I can show
You what I propose
How we'll see ...
Who we're meant to be ...

Lie down and let yourself
Be steered from above
We don't decide our lives
Or who our hearts really love ...

La dee da...

Lie down and let yourself
Be steered from above
We don't decide our lives
Or who our hearts really love ...

Whenever my man describes me
He don't mention coy ...
But see what imbibes inside me
Ain't really my choice ...
'Cause I'm just plain MAD

Here we float ...
Anchoring my magnum speed boat ...
How was I to know I'd be bit by my pet scorpio?

And now I'm mad ...
For you, mad
My cheeks blush maroon
My how you
Make my lips drool ... bad
Now this starved kitty cat is mad

Our hearts sail , but only till the ocean winds
Didn't know you'd go at the first glimpse of her frilly under...toe

That makes me mad ...
At you, mad
My blood boils maroon
I owe you a loaded harpoon ... stat
'Cause this brat kitty cat is MAD

The waves dilute your lies
Into useless die-a-tribe
And how well you harmonize with the current's wet thigh-high tide

Oh I'm so mad...
With you
I'm mad you big maroon
I owe you the meanest monsoon ... fast
Your fallback kitty cat is mad

Morning still new,
But no solid sign of you...
I look outside,
Are you off to run and hide?

Did you know they'd come...
And drag you off and run?

Where did you go...
Sweet Wednesday still walks alone
Forever in the yard running
Swift and hard for...
Some head start

Did you just know?
I'd be distracted and so
You did me a service...
And bid a farewell kiss?

Those days we should have stayed inside
Basking in our time
Guess we just couldn't have seen
What was yet to be...
Snatching you from me...

So stunned here I sit and blink
And can't seem to speak or listen
What makes me so top heavy?
Pouring in me smooth and steady?

Slipping
I let it drizzle
Sugared as these days
Suddenly knee deep in this dulcet crossway
I'll let the serum navigate...

I slowly sink...
In this feeling
Weight so immense, rich thick and dense
Soaking in this succulence

I slowly sink...
In this feeling
Syrup like you drip a warmth so rhythmic
Sticking me stuck savoring...
This whole thing

Ow dazzled,
I stare so silly
Wondering is this happening really
Can't seem to understand it
Stop it, slow it or command it
Spellbound I'm poking, grazing, clutching each crumb
Why can't I satisfy this, leave and be done...
This oozing liquid slow my run

And then I sink...

Shifty Eyes, Shifty Eyes...

Solve the case, solve this
Couldn't go to law school yet there's practice
Chilled blood runs through
The husk we call...you
Though I'm convinced formaldehydes the true
Fluid coursing through
Causing in you this...finitude

You come through
But it's no substitute
Of who
Once craved my sweet abuse
But I have a solid alibi
That I stand by...
The day that dear old daddy died

Dirty undies
'Cause daddy was the one who did the laundry
But my childish rage
Shows that I am not of age
When way before he was content to stay
Swallowing my hurtful wordplay
Now he's afraid of his own protege

But see, he's been mad at me
Ever since I killed baby #3
He made me act all grown up
But when he'd finish he'd shout suck your thumb...hun

Oh that day
Oh what sad and painful day will ...
Come to take you away?
Inevitably... from me?
Love like this can't last always

Oh that day
Whatever will you say?
So politely showing me my separate way
That night, I'll lie
Just to stay

God knows what we have
I know there's no way
Life could get better
Than these days we gave
You set me up so high and now my sights are doomed
Nothing will shine quite like this love that's bloomed

Oh sweet day
Sweet and bitter day
Could it possibly be that gloom won't ever touch you and me?
I guess we'll just
Wait and see...

Remember the things that we went through?
Silly me and you ...
The youth on the young is wasted fun
How that was true for me and you
But still... our big thrill
Left me so damn unfulfilled

Oh the things we risked
Me and my nemesis
The altruist, antithesis ...
Whose grip slit my pretty wrists
Leaving me in fits
Still not over this

I'm used to three hundred twenty two
Because of you
And although our feelings now are few
Your father keeps disowning you
But must self-distrust ...
Always lead me back to us?

Back in the day of oblivion
I could not quite get past the turn on
But these days I'm aware of the loaded gun
You've always had your ring finger on ...

Why do I cry this much?
Why do I fear that we can lose touch?
Since it has happened before
I fear it will happen so I'm reacting even more
Usually this would be nothing
But instead it's a detail of losing that one thing

Poems in my head just spill
Songs to sing that you keep coming
What I would do if I could kill
The melody of losing you that's humming

The darkest beats in me
Drum happily, freely, not miserably
But when played in duo
Impossible to do if you're not here at all

Usually this would be nothing
But instead a grand crescendo...
Of swelling notes from these low strings

Poems in my head just spill
Songs to sing to you keep coming
What I would do if I could kill
The steady beat of losing you that's drumming